Irritants. They are everywhere and we find them, or at least I do. Its strange since I made the decision or choice that I was going to only accept thriving in my life versus surviving the irritants and pain of it, the more irritants and pain or challenges I’ve found. Some of the most drastic to be exact. I’ve been told or read that the enemy only attacks what you want when its something that put’s him in jeopardy. Less biblical, the more you want something the harder it is to get it.
So in searching for this whole healthy, self-care world, I’m trying to find ways to maneuver said irritants and pain. Starting this blog, taking a long baths, journaling, trying to be better organized so I’m less rushed, etc.
Then today out of no where an irritant, stabbed its way directly into my metaphorical paw and sent my heart racing and actually hurting with frustration, anger and pain. That quick. Spent the morning, for the most part focusing on how I can successfully thrive, for one little thorn, one little piss ant, one thing send me back to the world of red and black anger, insecurity and my blood boiling to the point that I couldn’t figure out how to get my heart to stop literally racing.
So my mind tried to race faster back to my self-care list that I’m trying to find the right tools I need for any gotta fix it situation. Meditation. So I grabbed my phone and looked for the first free app. I think I went through three of them and I actually dosed off, thankfully. The dreams were just as irrational feeling inducing though. Insecurity, unable to maneuver a situation, physical set backs and then a text alert brought me back to awake. My heart isn’t racing anymore, but its definitely still hurting. So I’m grabbing this tool.
I don’t want that insignificant thorn or piss ant to bring Mama Bear’s rage to the surface and attack those I love in some cases more than anything.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. May the God of HOPE fill you with all JOY and PEACE as you trust in him, so that you may OVERFLOW with HOPE by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13
God, please help me find the tools I need to thrive. The tools that will help me be filled with JOY and PEACE. So that I maybe the best Mama Bear, I can be.
Mentally Healthy Mama Bear in Progress 